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Stay Ready

I'm not your backbone holding you up.  
But I'll be your kickstand when you are done.  
You're done.

And I'll see you when we're older; this conversation's over.
More than a moment's notice warning for you.

I'm not an angel or part of this crowd.  
But I'll be your vocal chords and raise your voice loud.  Loud.

And I'll see you when we're older; this conversation's over.
More than a moment's notice warning for you.
Cuz before you will know it the time will be flying by you.  
It's more than a two weeks notice warning for you.
So just stay ready...

It's not long enough.  It's not long enough.  
Just be careful of your thoughts.  
It's not long enough.  Enough.


Equations


Hang where spiders dwell all your days.  
Hope to break this spell clouded by haze.  
Wear a mask; conceal your face.

Alas the time has come-a life to choose.  
Forget where you came from?  A life you'll lose.  
Ignore the past and friends you bruised.  
Shattered glass multiplied by two.  

It's these moments of my life.  
When I realize I have died.  
And the human penned inside turned his tail and ran to hide.  

Turn away, turn away, turn away when memories fade.  
You'll be safe.  If you turn away.  
Turn away when all the numbers don't add up.  

Never, never see the light.  Never, never let it go.  
Never, never see the light.  Never, never let it go when all the numbers don't add up.  

Feeling no healing.

Turn away, turn away, turn away when memories fade.  
You'll be safe.  If you turn away.  
Turn away when all the numbers don't add up.


First Place


I'm not teetering on the edge.  Already came down off this ledge.  
I hesitate to use my breath.  Not strong enough to ward off death for you my blood.

You have us backed against a wall.  So we cannot prevent your fall.  
So am I wasting my words?  I'm not wasting my words on you no more.

My silence turns into my fight.  Against your everlasting night.  
Cuz I'm not wasting my words.  I'm not wasting my words on you no more.

I wanted to hit you then right across the jaw.  
You wanted to lure me in so I didn't bite at all.  
Plead your case.  Read my face.  Not even in this race.  
Cuz I don't care I don't need first place.

I'm not wasting my words on you no more.


Ignorant


Turn that head around.  You're rolling in your grave.  
Tired of feeling down from mistakes that you have made.  
But you ask, you ask, you ask, you ask for it.  

Tell me I'm right, tell me right now, tell me I'm wrong.  You don't need an answer now.

Solving riddles that you'll never understand.  
You say you're ignorant but you held it in your hand.  
And you ask, you ask, you ask, you ask for it.

Tell me I'm right, tell me right now, tell me I'm wrong.  
You got it figured out, figured out, but the time is long gone.  
So tell me I'm right, tell me right now, tell me I'm wrong.  
You don't need an answer, don't need an answer now.

You're stalling...

Spare Me Some Change

Parts are misplaced.  I've been erased.  No?

Life that's been wasted.  Hung up and brain dead.  
I'll never find the way through this tunnel that I'm in.  
There's no light at the end.  No!

Foundations not made from concrete.
I'm still thinking that I had you beat.
Are my conclusions incomplete?
It all re-echoes, just repeats. 

Hatred of strange.  Don't spare me some change.  No.

I'm still thinking...  

Open Wound


Open wound again.  The cut that was made.  
Open wound again.  And scars that won't fade.

I'm alone again, where everything's still.  I'm alone again, and there is no will.

Open wound again.  I think it got me this time.  
Open wound again.  It's bleeding out my life.

I'm alone again, where everything's cold.  I'm alone again, and it's infecting my soul.

I'm alone again, and I'm leaving this place.  
Leaving this place and somehow, somehow I'm lured into a telephone pole.

I'm alone again.


Head First


Say what you mean.  Say what you're meaning to me.  
I'm not a fool.  I'm not a fool who believes.  
In whispered doubts, I never thought I would fit.  
But just like a birth, I went head first into it.  Into it.

But see.  See the futile attempts to find life.  When you had it in front of your eyes.  
And it's not just yourself you would harm.  Many lives you will take by the arm.  
And the closest to you from the start, ended up streaming tears in their heart.  
I mean, today I mean you.  Today I mean you.  

I went head first into it.  


Out Of Turn


It's not enough to carry on.  It's not enough to prove you wrong.  
And think it's gonna work out.  
It's not enough to say your prayers.  It's not enough to climb the stairs.  
And hope you'll never burn out.

Cuz nobody said you wouldn't learn.  And nobody's talking out of turn.  At least not today.  
But you want to waste your life away, and keep it for yourself.  
While you're letting all your fires burn, nobody's talking out of turn.

It's not enough to live your life.  It's not enough to wait to die.  
And say that it means nothing.  
But all we can do is sit and sulk. Cuz it's not enough to squeak the chalk.   
And  pretend  that you're not touching us.

You should surrender now; throw in the towel.  
Cuz this solitude is what will blow all your candles out.  
Every day we plead is one less we'll ever have to prove your life is enough.

Cuz nobody's talking out of turn.


Walking Tall


And so I wait for an answer, an answer to my prayer.  
To wake, wake up from this selfish nightmare.  
And so with you these feelings I now share.  All the things I know that I can't bare.

I want to hold my head high again.  I want to hold my head high again.  
Too many reasons shadow the friends.  I want to hold my head high again.

And so I wait to hear you, and throw you all my weight.  
I've lived, lived in fear my whole life of this date.  
Will you find your love, love for me in your heart?  
I know I haven't, I've never done my part.  
And so with you these feelings I now share.  Cuz deep inside I know that it's not fair.

I would say I'm renewed.  I would tell you, you, you on my death bed.  
I'll tear your heart out then.  I'll tear your heart out then.  Then...then...


Moldings


Stop.  Stop me from breathing and take this life away.  
Stop.  Stop your believing in something far away.  So far away.

Cuz you and your moldings hold you down.  You and your moldings.  You and yours.

Stop.  Stop your conniving.  I'm just not in the mood.  
Stop.  No sense in diving into the deep end of the pool.  Oh, the pool.

Cuz you and your moldings hold you back.  You and your moldings.  You and yours.

Stop.  Stop in your tracks now and turn back from this course.  
Stop.  Don't you relax now.  You'll just make it worse.  So much worse.

Cuz you and your moldings hold you down.  You and your moldings.  You and yours.


Smoke Clears


Now that I know, now that it's over I can breathe again.  
But when the smoke clears, it always reminds me that I am still human.  
The little we know.  The little we see is so much less than you.  
But now that I know, now that it's over I can breathe again.

Strong memories blew out my only fire.  While these mountains seem so much higher.

There's more that's included with me.  Not more than a man.  
I just make it harder to breathe.

Winded and cold.  Seams ripped apart now.  I fell right to the ground.  
My strings are undone, but knotted together when voices make no sound.  
And all I've  known.  All I've learned cannot stop a plan.  
But now that I know, now that it's over I can breathe again.

And I promised that I would never tire.  But these mountains seem so much higher.

There's more that's included with me.  Not more than a man.  
I just make it harder to breathe.  
Oh there's more that's included.  More that's included with me.  
Not more than a man.  I just make it harder to breathe.

I should have known.  Might have known.  Should have known.  
Might have known.  Should have known...

Copyright Jevin Wade/ScatterBrain Records 2010