too far to walk

Progression

Hear

Feel the breeze blow steady even though they're not ready.  Walk on the board, put your feet in the sand, with the sun in your face, what a disgrace.  Is it worth your time?  Is it worth your life?

Don't sell your only soul by the sea.  Don't reminisce about how it used to be, cuz I'm not deserted.  And I got an answer but they don't want to...

Sleep tight knowing that day is close.  We will pay back what we owe.  Cuz driving is good, put it under your hood.  The pride that you sell didn't go so well.  We'll break the seal and we'll be revealed. 

Their only water makes them thirsty again...and I know that it's not worth nothing.  Struggling to make it all worth something.  Their living lies; has it been that long?  Cuz I got a name, I got a name to say...

Don't make comments about being free.  Don't talk it up and say it's bad for me.  Cuz I'm not the lost one,  and I got an answer, but they don't want to hear.

Sentiment One

Sell the sun to another one.  Another sky that's outnumbered two to one.  And I wonder what it has become.  Buy the starts of another night.  Looking at it I know I never would get it right.  I'm not blind, but I lost my sight. 

They set up, set up everyone.  Never needed anyone.  Sentiment one has just begun.  I'm all on my own.  I'm all on my own.  Makes no difference I'm sold.  I'm all on my own.  

Shed a tear it makes it clear.  And it runs, runs dry down to a sigh of another year.  All the mourners will wake up and find that they were wrong.  And the children realize it's a long time gone.  

So bargain with the moon if it is what they desire.  They better not even think that they can play with this hot wire. Cuz it's opposite, it makes me cold.  It makes me cold.  

(you can't believe in something dead if it's alive, it's not the same when it's your own personal style, feelings are gone to get them back would take a while, you can't believe in something dead if it's alive)

Behind My Back

And the world was what it was, just a message from above.  And it woke me up, me up, me up, me up.  I gotta get myself again, back to myself again.  Back to what it was, it was, it was.

(you would see it's nothing) don't believe it.  (you believe it's something) don't mistake it.  (you can clearly see that) just relive that there's nothing behind my back.

Need a pinch to end your dream.  Take a little more it seems.  I'm elected, what do you know, yea.  I gotta do my own part, but now it's time for your part.  It's not a one way flow you know, you know.

Don't let my conscience spill the truth.  I'll be a friend and leave it to you.  Will you own up to what you've done?  Will you stop it before it's begun?  Cuz we will never be the same.  If you still play this game in your head.  

You say that's something, but hey! you need a friend, and you find yourself alone.  Alone...

Erosion

It's what I feel.  It's what I believe.  It's gone away.  But I hear it roaming around.  It can't be gone cuz I have found anything to build a past.

So feel no pain.  (but ya gotta know)  Drink the rain.  (cuz you keep the flow)  It all makes sense that I don't want to be the one...

Cuz I don't want to be surprised.  I'd just rather be denied.  Cuz at least I'd know what's on your mind.  And I don't want to be surprised.

Time to relive everything stored in my mind.  Hope you've got some time on your hands.  I will supply all your demand.  It will take all day.

Take a step.  (cuz it's all you got)  Make mistakes.  (but there's not a lot)  Of lee-way here, and I don't want to be the one...

I fought my own wars inside my little head.  I made my own plans, and broke the rules instead.  But I don't want to be blamed the one who succumbs to you.  Cuz I don't want to be heard.

Erode my lifespan and throw it all away.  Secret visions, erosion sparked by hate.  And I don't want to become the one who succumbed to you.  Cuz I don't want to be heard.  

Change

We got far, and we're good at hiding it.  We keep it secret, we keep it secret again and again.  But we got nothing, no nothing to hide from you.  But you're distant, and we don't know if your change did you good.  Did your change do you good?  No.  You speak words of confidence, but your mind is oblivious.  And your change didn't do you good.  No you changed like I knew you would.

If you need help, we would never know.  If you would ask, the space in between would make us say no.  Cuz we don't promise nothing, nothing.  We don't promise cuz we're not sure if your change did you good.  Did your change do you good?  No.  You speak words of confidence, but your mind is oblivious.  And your change didn't do you good.  No you changed like I knew you would.

You owe it to yourself.  You owe it to yourself.  You owe it.  You owe it.  No we don't think the same, but we both know that your change didn't do you good.  

Torch

Time is like a cloud that blows away.  The same feelings but a different day.  Cuz it stays here in my heart.  If only I could get some time back.  I'd try to live again and face the fact that I knew it from the start. 

And I know it's real.  One more look at the obvious.  And I see that it's real to me. 

I'm dreaming every night that it's still the same.  Pretending that I'm fine just to imitate everyone alive.  If only I could tell you how I feel, the things inside my head wouldn't seem surreal.  And maybe I'd try.  But I cheat the sea...

And I know it's real.  One more look at the obvious.  And I see that it's real to me.  And I know that it's real.  One last glance at accomplishment.  And I see that it's real to me.

Oh, where is my torch?  Where is my torch?  

It reaffirmed my doubt when the phone stopped ringing.  You cannot get away from this.  You'll understand my faith when I stop believing.  So many reasons, so many reasons to believe.  So many reasons, so many reasons...

Lens

What I see, what I make believe.  Still no doubt as I wonder about.  Up ahead, confrontation we dread.  Have no fear, press the gas and I'll steer.  No way...to get away.  It's always understood.

Step on my plan before it starts.  Sorry to say we have to part.  Pity to hear they stole your optical lens.

What I know, start before they say go.  What I heard, not a single word.  Up and down, sends me spinning around.  What I felt, my cards were never dealt.  No way...to get away.  It's always understood.

Step on my plan before it starts.  Communications turn to art.  Pity to hear they stole your optical lens.

You see it once again.  You staked your claim, defense.  You made it too immense before we even met.

What I find, there's a plague in my mind.  It's just fine, just another weak sign.

Set Apart

Say once got my clue.  I've lost what to do.  I don't need a pat on the back.  Already know all that I lack. 

I'm set apart.  (but you know in the end you don't have to be)  I'm set apart.  (and you know you could come back, back and free me)  But I don't need it, let me breathe.  Make me a promise that I can see.  I'm set apart.  

Lost one, make that two.  Go on blame me too.  I don't need a hearing hear.  Or a voice shout out in fear.  

Go ahead and make another incision, crowded out by an ill-thought decision that we made.  Buy the lie like everyone else did.  They don't exist, just like they intended-got it made.  Hard at work, another day.  It's just a game but don't listen to what I say.  Who am I to care at all, to want to know-did they get to where they wanted to go?  But I don't need a helping hand.  Or a friend to understand.  

If you need a reason to believe, I'll give you a reason and that's me.  I'm not apart. 

The Music Song

How Long I'll Last

If I could be myself, it'll be the day.  When everyone around speaks what they hoped to say.  It seems it's hard for us to understand feelings.  Don't need to make a name, already found "being."

If you could see myself, see where I came from.  It wouldn't take too long to give up and be done.  I don't need sympathy, just a brand new start.  Without this endless fight that brings me down too hard.

No...yea.  No...yea.  Yea?  No.  Yea?  No.

And I could tell you now, tell again and again.  That trying never works, and I don't think I can.  

If I could be myself, the past would come alive.  If you could see myself, then maybe I would try.  But after all this time, all these years have passed; I'm still unsure, I'm don't know how long I'll last. 

Cold

Spoken like a gentleman.  He's got no words to say.  But he lives it up in his head, for all it's worth today.  Got no time to work this out.  Spend my time roaming about. 

I'm out in the cold and I realize there's nothing left.

He whispers in the ear thoughts he'd like say.  But he gets it back with a confused slap.  Cuz he shouldn't have tried anyway.

I'm out in the cold and I realize there's nothing left.  

And he can't wondering why me?  Why me?  And he can't help wishing for the ending.  For the ending.  Why won't it come?  

I'm out in the cold and I realize there's nothing left.  It's what I've been told and I'm sealed, I'm sealed off from the rest.

Sleeve

Don't make me an excuse.  Just live your life resolved in another hill, with you on top.  So it didn't work out.  Suppose you'd use my shoulder for another headrest, or maybe more.

And they think I'm played out, but I got more tricks up my sleeve.  And I know that I don't want to be your only regret.

And I'd die for another chance to make it all worth while.  To see the light, to see her smile.  And even though I'm young, I still would have bought that it could have been our own thought.   

And they think I'm played out, but I got more tricks up my sleeve.  And I know that I don't want to be your only regret.  

Be your only regret.  You told how you felt.  Turn evil to stone.  What a dream as it is done.  And I'm not your only regret.  

Oh I just want to say that I've got everything I need.  Cuz I'm sure that I don't want to be your only regret.

Copyright Jevin Wade/ScatterBrain Records/2002